My walk the last two years.

2 Years ago my family and I moved here to Kalispell Montana to start over. My wife and I were working opposite shifts and had no days off together leaving little time for family bonding. Our time together consisted of handing the keys to the car off so one or the other could get to and from work. One would stay home during the day while the other would stay home a night.

We decided to move here to Montana as a change in lifestyle. We were going to go to church and spend more quality time together. That worked for a while. Then a thing called the Xbox 360 came out. We played video games before just for fun, but things changed. My wife joined a very well known all female video gaming organization. They offered a male counter part to the organization and I joined to bond with my wife while playing video games.

This led to us buying another Xbox 360 so we could practice for competitions on our own xbox. Our gaming practices were held every night of the week for 2-3 hours. If we had a match it would run late into the night. Both of us were doing this leaving little time for our children. We made many connections in the gaming industry. Stacey even got the chance to go to EA Games Canada to tour the facility there all payed for by EA. We were connected and making names for ourselves.

I was on the way to being sponsored by verizon wireless to play Rainbow Six Vegas at events around the country. My team and I worked hard to get where we were. By this time I was not only competing in tournaments and writing articles for a well know website where some would be published on Xbox.com. But I was trying to be a dad with no time to be a dad. One week before my team and I were signed to get payed for playing video games. I woke up and re-arranged my priorities. Did I want to be a selfserving name seeking arrogant gamer? Or did I want to be a good husband and father?

I chose the later and quit gaming for status and money. However I went in the direction of helping others get there. Unfortunatly that doesn't work out to well. Most are so full of themselves that they can't work as a team. Most want all the glory and fame. They want to be a household name in the gaming industry. I still am part of the industry but not as I was in the past. I have lost a lot of respect in the industry by following the path towards the LORD. That shows me I am doing the right thing.

I can't believe how self absorbed I was just a few months ago. It sickens me to think of all the time I lost in my walk with the LORD as well as a husband and father. I could have spent that time studying the word. Maybe even go into ministry where I know I would be able to help others. I have finally figured out what I want to be when I grow up. I want to be a good and faithful servent. It only took me 31 years to get my priorities straightened out.

So where do I go now? Guess I have some praying to do!